Hurtful Responses

My love is still struggling this week.  It has been rare in recent memory for the rage to last for many days.   She is now in the fifth day.  In the depressive state, it is not uncommon for the patient to feel abandoned, alone in the struggle and upset with her plight.  To make matters worse, the patient will withdraw into her room and into herself exacerbating the problem and prolonging the quote unquote down period.

This has been one of the worst in a while.  The patient will further extend the suffering by cancelling appointment for health and beauty.  The patient will struggle to connect and do the simple things to climb out of the abyss.   There is no way inside so there is no helping the patient.

Though a tremendous effort by my son, the patient was nursed back to even and enjoyed a wonderful day purchasing an outfit for a company function, enjoying a wonderful supper, a movie and the wonders of a hot tub.  This was supposed to be the beginning of the up period.  We thought we had weathered the storm.   

The next day, the patient was to receive new dentures.  This was to restore her smile, rebuild the fullness in her lips and allow her to eat corn and steak once more but alas the teeth are tight and uncomfortable.  Though not to be unexpected, this coupled with being so close to the last down period has been very hard on the patient.  She is asleep once again and my heart goes out to her.

There can never be anything out of the ordinary, not now, not ever!!   Things must be then same to maintain the best possible biorhythm.  New dentures, a hair raising trip to Edmonton in a blustery winter storm and Remembrance Day are not routine.  This is as out of the ordinary as it gets.

I love her very much and hate to see her struggling.